as squirrels and chipmunks fly by me

while a beaver dam appears in the living room
and stop signs begin marching in protest
along with counterprotests by traffic lights
and the leaves on the trees grow heavier than the wood
while hot dogs have paper clips shoved into them
as I try to write "as squirrels and chipmunks fly by me"
when I get asked how to spell "license"
and the money in my pocket ceases to exist
along with the spelling of "money"
when the squirrels dig into the ground
and the stop signs are ignored
and I can see the cracks
and the ground tears away, breaking into whiteness, and I

old porn stars who got fired from their jobs for cocaine habits and started working the overnight shift at a stop & shop with each other

remember the first time you ate something sweet?
broke down the meaning of "sweet" into
something other than words, something on your tongue
moving into your stomach and flooding your brain
with
sweet

the first time you were
a) sure you could find words for anything
b) unable to find words for this

the drop-off, some call afterglow
(everything is less
sweet
then, why say it glows
when the moment before is what you wanted to feel?)

Yeah, it was just like that.
Now help me pick up these boxes.
I don't want to talk about that anymore.

the reason i am not participating

imitation is not understanding
you are crazy and i am crazier
i have been eaten by a salmon
i have to pay to participate
someone else will have to pay for all of this
puppets are not participating because they want to
i cannot drink through my nose
this is less fair than i think it is
i cannot ask you the questions i have
i do not represent anything but food and air